believe in heroes. [x]
CLINT AND NATASHA ARE ACTUALLY ON MY AVENGERS BIKINI.
I bought faaaabric. Pictures later.
missmarvel requested that “someone draw natasha as winter soldier and sharon as captain america please thanks” and im pretty sure it is my patriotic duty to do so
sorry its so sketchy and bleck also i dONT KNOW HOW TO DRAW GUNS
"Put him on ice."
This just makes me sick to my stomach and I just want to reach through the screen and save Bucky from this agony. The way he is staring at his own reflection. The confusion in his eyes. At this point, they already wiped the memories of who he was, so he doesn’t really recognize the image in front of him, and yet he reaches out and tries and touch it before his body freezes. I mentioned before how the only time Bucky might actually really have a look at his reflection are the moments before they turn him to ice. Because during these past 70 years, Bucky hasn’t been living. He has been kept frozen. When they needed him for a mission they thawed him out and then once he was done they would freeze up again. They don’t really explain it in the movie, but the reason behind this was because he was getting restless and too unstable. His memories were trying to come to the surface and like a confused and frightened child, he became violent and hysteric. So they solved this problem by keeping his this way. How people still call him a villain after learning that is beyond me.
#//which would mean he wakes up in the same position#still terrified#because his brain was preserved in that moment#it would have suffered considerable damage#his cells and nerves traumatised by the utter shock of thermal change#he probably endured seizures#some form of TBI#and respiratory issues when he fist wakes up#to say the least#he would be nothing more than docile because he would be physically unable to fight them off#while they injected him with some kind of stabiliser#and ran their tests to ensure he was functional#and this happened for 70+ years.#his brain still more malleable than a child’s#at this point more like a 6 month old baby#unable to recognise things around him#if only because of muscle memory.#which is still shoddy to say the least#if it were not for muscle memory#he would be unable to speak#but it’s a repetition#a routine#and he’s a soldier#so some part of him is still in his element.#whilst his captors take advantage of that#and purposefully inflict on him and manipulate him into stockholm syndrome.#because they need to ensure he won’t use the voice he still has#to turn against them.
And just when I thought this couldn’t get more heartbreaking. He probably wonders if he is even alive anymore because he is nothing more than a reanimated body who get’s thrown into a freezer once it has served it’s purpose. After so many years of this, he has grown to believe that this is normal for him. Because his work has been a gift to mankind. Because he has shaped the century. So this is just what needs to be done to him in order for that to happen. Because he is a means to an end. That this is what his life is all about and that he has no real choice in the matter. Wake up, get prepped, get wiped, find target, finish the mission, go back in the freezer, repeat. Sebastian was right to say that Bucky suffers from Post Traumatic Stress, or what they used to refer to as battle fatigue. His mental state is debilitated. Muscle memory is so important. Is all he really has. He knows how to walk, how to talk, how to fight. He knows this because his body remembers how to do these things. But he probably doesn’t know anything beyond that. How to really take care of himself. When you see him at the Smithsonian you just want to take him home with you and show him how to shave, and shower and be a person again. On the surface, he looks like such a threatening and dominant individual. Strip back the layers bit by bit and you have nothing but a fragile and confused man who doesn’t really know his own worth.